Forever alone No more- H

Clock shows: 5.45pm / Date:02Feb13

Singlehood ends in: 19 hours 

Shakespeare Idioms Used: Heart of gold, Heart of hearts

I’m being escorted back to the reception hall. Well it’s not a hall exactly. I remember having to fight with Dad into not spending a bomb for a Wedding eve reception- especially when the groom or his family is unintended to come. So upon my request, he had settled in for arranging a guest house for the same.

Now, all my near and dear ones will be coming with huge boxes of gifts. Well, it’s a tradition and even if you urge plead them into not to bringing any goodies, they believe that the bride shouldn’t be visited empty-handed.

Anyway, I wouldn’t be knowing 90% of the guests. All I have to do is, flash a warm smile when they wish me luck and happiness. It means my cheeks are going to hurt for a good five-six hours. Blame it on my Mom and Dad for inviting anyone and everyone- those from work, even those with whom they worked 30yrs ago(pun UNINTENDED), the near-by shopkeepers, the drivers, the gardeners, or anybody for that matter attended my reception! They were cordially invited. After all, I am my Mom and Dad’s first daughter and this is the first wedding in my entire extended family.

Even when I am being showered with blessings, love, gifts and compliments, my mind is still going places. Fingers crossed, I am just being hopeful.

Hopeful to-  get more lovely gifts 😛

Hopeful to- stay beautiful and my pics coming out gorgeous 🙂

Hopeful that- my friends drop in now..

Hopeful to- receive his text now..

I hope- in spite of having a cold exterior, he has a heart of gold..

I hope- he loves……. no, likes me at least. I have seen so many of my friends getting into arranged marriages. The moment the wedding is fixed, they are on calls all the time- texts, Watsapp, Skype, frequent dates, lots of love. But me? Does he really love me? Was he forced into a wedding? Is he heart-broken from any other previous relationships? Will I be loved? Welcomed to his heart?

God! What am I thinking? Is it just Bridal agony? Pre-wedding jitters? Even though I believe in my heart of hearts that things will get better, I’m feeling so down in the mouth about everything.

I look at my Mehendi-clad hands……..and out of nowhere, a tear reaches them..

Written for the A-Z challenge 2015′

H

Comments

  1. I am also my parent’s first daughter so I can relate and assume what the scene will be when I get married! 😛

    P.S: I missed out a lot.. now trying to back on track! 😀

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  2. Hehe… I might share something like this sometime in the future 😉

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  3. The last line.. scary thoughts but they do creep up finding their way! Sweet again and thanks for sharing it straight from heart Shalini 🙂

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  4. Aw you made me feel sad. I hope he made it all up later.

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  5. I wanted to elope on the eve before wedding day to avoid all the formalities witht he relatives, of course with him but he wasn’t open to my idea. 🙂 wedding jitters comes in all sizes and forms. 🙂

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  6. Yes, these were pre wedding jitters. Btw – you were in a reception without him?

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  7. shanayatales says:

    Hmmm about time he sends you a text, isn’t it? Wondering what is taking him so long. 😛
    *Shantala @ ShanayaTales*

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  8. Lovely. my A to z challenge also about memories

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  9. You did hope for a lot of things 😉 But that is very natural for a young bride. I hope your dreams came true 🙂

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  10. If this was an arranged marriage (by the sounds of it), you are on brave gal! 🙂 ❤

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  11. It’s definitely pre-wedding jitters. I couldn’t sleep the night before the wedding and for all the morning ritual photos I looked like Chinese with my eyes almost closed.

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  12. swathishenoy says:

    Oh poor girl 😦 I guess so much excitement and confusion makes that! I cant wait to read that you DID get a reply from him.

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  13. Awww … why oh why ? Pre-wedding jitters are normal and happens to all (whether arranged marriage or not). Thanks to all the extra attention we receive, it just turns into an overwhelming moment, that’s all. 🙂

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  14. aw.. why the tear Shalini? It’s your moment in life. What next? I want to ask your husband, why was he so distant?

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  15. This was real insightful, and solemn even. Thanks for sharing!

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  16. vinodinii says:

    Aww…I loved the last line. The tear reaching the mehndi bit. Indian weddings do leave the bride a lil overwhelmed.

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